BAND-AiD EXPlORATiON

All things happen for a reason. Individuals stumbling in and out of your life serves as no exception. Often times they allow you to comprehend things that you were once unable to understand when blinded by the illusions you could have sworn were reality. [[Magic Show]] Even more importantly, they may force you to take off a blind fold even when your fists are clenched so tightly around the fabric due to fear of seeing what's on the other side of the opaque material. But even when forced, it's possible to appreciate taking a glance at the truth. Recently a soul came back into my life & did just this. I must admit that his emergence was quite a pleasant and refreshing one. Knocking on my life's door, he reminded me of a salesman in the back of my mind. Charming & brilliant at his job. [[Successful Business Man]] He sold me on the idea that I am worth more than what others in my world are offering me. I've settled for insufficient. Now I see. Senses sharpened. Sometimes the hardest thing we're capable of is letting something go that's only weakening us. With all your heart you wish that you will wake up & discover the weakener has instantly changed. [[Fairy Tale Solution]] Unfortunately, life doesn't quite work that way. At least most of the time It doesn't. I guess I'm now in search of the band-aid, preparing to let go of him understanding he'll inevitably take a piece of my heart with him.

OH AMERiCA: GUNs OVER GAYs?

The idiots unfortunately never cease to amaze me. More than ever before, it appears that people are incapable of keeping their mindless comments to themselves. What ever happened to that good ol' saying " THINK before you speak." [[ Virtually Nonexistent ]] So today I walk into the "Diversity Center" [[ in quotes for a number of reasons ]] & I caught the tail end of a conversation that I wish I hadn't. A certain someone [[ Yes i'll spare this idiot his identity ]] explained, " ALL HOMOSEXUALS ARE GOING TO HELL". Does anyone know of any time machine manufacturers? In that instance, I wanted nothing more than to hop in one, travel back to five minutes prior and enter the room three minutes after I initially had. All I could manage to initially utter was "repeat that?" Of course he had no shame in his comment so the words full heartedly seaped from his mouth once more.
The last word trickled out in slow motion, every word articulated perfectly, in a voice that the devil himself would possess. Rage ran through my entirety and in the next instance I was quickly moving towards him, with the coldest eyes. He returned my glance with an expression of complete misunderstanding. [[ Figures ]] I then quickly punched him directly in the mouth and walked away. I had no words for him. He just had to be punished for his stupidity and though majority of the time I am opposed to offering physical consequences it's simply what it came to. I was unafraid of what was to come next but to my surprise he stood there, like an inanimate object that was never set to life by Cinderellas fairy god mother. So I walked away, no swaggered and chuckled that I got to play [[PuNiShEr]]. Mission Accomplished.
Okay so in real life I looked at him like I had lost all sanity and expressed that I really didn't have time to waste arguing with him about his stupidity. I knew that bothering to do so would only lead to me upsetting myself because he just wouldn't get it. He wouldn't WANT to get it. I walked away & let him continue being the closed minded imbecile that he is.
I just don't understand where he got off saying that. I was unaware that he was deemed "GOD" and could pass that judgement. People's interpretation of religion baffles me. The majority of enragement came from the fact that he figured that people of homosexual orientation choose to be that way. In today's world, who in their right mind would CHOOSE homosexuality. My hand certainly isn't raised. I'm convinced that if other people saw their peers being killed due to the lifestyle, they would switch it off. [[ Abruptly wouldn't be fast enough ]] People don't wake up one day in the midst of their childhood and decide this is the way they want to be. They just are. Lack of respect for them only makes the prejudice appear out of touch with human nature. Try opening your mind? [[Amusing: Everyone has a mind but not all indviduals have the ablity to think. ]] Perhaps "GOD" created homosexuality and different sexual orientations for purposes of diversity. Makes the world a little more interesting. [[Sleep on it...Dare someone to challenge it]]

P.S: You know we live in a backwards society when we are more comfortable seeing two men holding guns than holding hands.

+- OPPOSiTES ATTRACT -+

Walking down the street, I stumbled over love but I simply continued towards my destination. I walked right past, not even peering over my shoulder to get a second glimpse because I was a little shaken up & embarrassed. I'd nearly fallen. How rude. But they say if it's meant to be then you'll inevitably find your self smack dab on your face.[[ Fate ]] So here I stand. Or should I say, so here I lie. My face just recently mopped the sidewalk. Falling in love is a bitter sweet sentiment. I love a boy. I love to love him but he is presently hurting me. This is clear to both of us. I think feelings are mutual but let's just say we handle things quite differently. [[Opposites Attract]] In order to ensure that I don't hurt him he has cut me off. Neglected communication. He makes me suffer to prove my feelings for him. I call knowing that he won't pick up, but yearn to hear his voice so I settle for his voicemail. I am slave. My heart is tortured but I unexplainably don't wish to free myself from his love shackles. I endure. You might wonder: " What if this asshole ends up putting you through all this and not wanting you in the end?" Getting a taste of this type of love for someone is worth every bit of hurt. [[Insanity]] But how would we know the pleasures of life without the pain?

WiKiD KiD

[[Preface]] In my attempts to express this idea I find it most important to clarify that I am a realist, not a pessimist; these are quite different. [[Nonetheless]] The world is an evil place. Man makes it that way. Creator or Force made it that way. My thinking is strangely cyclical when it comes to criticizing the planet I call home. Just when I've become convinced that this isn't the case, I come to my senses & am jolted back to reality. Some outside force always taps me on the shoulder shaking it's head from right to left, reminding me that this undoubtedly isn't the case. [[Voluntary & Temporary Ignorance]]. I would probably be better off entranced by the idea that people are naturally ethical & it is only circumstances that demoralize them. Unfortunately that's apparently not the case. Strangely I feel as though the good is only a product of suppressing the bad. We have instances where we gain the power to overcome our natural demise. The black & white article I pick up each morning [[Oh yes, Newspaper]] only helps to strengthen my thoughts about human corruption. Though debating the very idea as to whether we are created like this by nature is entertaining, what is of greater amusement is to fathom the consequences if the world & it's beings were created completely differently. One simple alteration would dramatically change the dynamic of every relationship that we have to everything and everyone. [[What if the concept and sentiment of competitionwas non existent?]] Would all of our world's problems be solved?